Have you ever wanted to be tortured over and over again? Ever wondered just how much you could take ? How real is real ? That was my last session with Mz Suzanne… 6 hours of being in the hands of a sadist… Now, breaking someone is easy… taking them to the edge, and then pulling them back just so they know you can do it.. and then do it again and again over a period of hours… to slowly break them emotionally and psychologically.. that takes skill.
Imagine standing in the ocean.. waves hitting you.. you cannot fight it’s power.. you can only let it wash over you until the next wave… that’s what my day was like… torture.. rest.. torture.. rest.. torture.. rest… of course calling being hogtied tightly on the floor, or being left strung up on tiptoes a ‘rest’ is somewhat subjective… it simply means I wasn’t actually being tortured and screaming and sobbing…. I was beaten, stretched, electrocuted, waterboarded, bagged, restrained in many ways and so much more….. When that happens.. the ‘rests’ only leave you in a state of helplessness wondering, fearing what will happen next.. and you start to know you’re just a toy to be hurt, pushed, used.. 6 hours went by in the blink of an eye.. 3 weeks later.. I still ‘feel’ it… I still have flashbacks… I want more… perhaps ‘this’ is just one long rest until next time.. and she is already plotting and thinking how she will torture me next time…